Showing posts from February, 2011

Now I Know.

It has been one week and one day since we welcomed Jasper to this world. When they plunked him on my chest, I was overwhelmed by how familiar he looked. Yes, this was the person I had been feeding and holding and loving for months. This was the person who had been kicking my ribs and sticking his skinny little kneecap into my side since the weather turned cold in November. He even looked familiar.

I am humbled by how much I don't know about this baby thing, but I am also proud of the lessons I've already learned since last weekend. Here are a few of the things I now know. They make me feel stronger than ever.

1. Labor. Everyone says you just know when you've gone into labor. Not only can your body rise to the occasion, but it invites your brain along for the ride, giving you wisdom and confidence for the whole nine yards. I spent Thursday night and Friday tuned into my contractions, noting how they crept closer together and became more aggressive by evening. Every fiber of m…

Velkommen til verden, Jasper!

Jasper Wade Carlson
February 12, 2011 at 12:58pm
7 pounds, 6 ounces
19 3/4 inches

Can't Hurry Love

Last week Matt and I bought the biggest bag of clementines I’d ever seen. We let them spill all over our kitchenette table and wondered how we’d ever eat them all. “By the time we finish this bag, we’ll be parents!” But once that assumption was made, I noticed we were both eating two or three clementines a day.Now there are just two left and I’m about to peel one of them. Last week I was begging this baby to stay put until a funeral was over.We celebrated new life last Wednesday with a beautiful service and confident hymns.Since then, I have been waiting for a different celebration of new life – one that does not have an official time and date to print in the paper.Each day further convinces me that I’m terrible at “real life Advent”, the intense waiting and watching and wondering moments in life.I have distracted myself with wives’ tales about inducing labor all week, but have instead checked dozens of tricks off the list as defunct.Yesterday was my due date and I have decided in…